If it wasn’t for it, IĬertainly would not be the woman I am today and I wouldn’t have it any other Such a deep and profound impact on me as a person. This series, but more importantly the community around it has had Their house after Frosty Faustings (a Guilty Gear focused tournament in Chicago).īeing in my childhood room with all my old trophies and medals felt alien to me,īut I found my old copy of Guilty Gear XX while going through my old bookshelf and Long period where my parents refused to see me, they invited me to come by There to pick me back up and set me back on course. Left me in the wake of my coming out, the friends I made through Guilty Gear were When my now ex-fianceé and immediate family Important enough that I kept trying and kept coming backĭespite the traumatic experience. Losing on stream to another trans woman, but the space still felt safe and Up back in my hotel room crying through a violent fit of inferiority after It wasn’t a great over even a good experience and I ended The first time I went out in public presenting as a woman was at aįighting game tournament. It’s still theīravest thing I’ve ever seen a Ky player do and zenzen is a queen through andĮventually came out, I was embraced by a community I was deathly afraid might I not read that I have no doubt I would not have transitioned. Going back in the closet but the thought of doing that was somehow scarier. A trans woman that I knewįrom my region said a lot in 140 characters. I just kept refreshing twitter and seeing how frightened I had made up my mind but nowĪn administration was going to be in power with a stated goal of making the However, on the night of the 2016 presidentialĮlection I was too scarred to sleep. Eventually, I decided that I needed to transition. Made through Guilty Gear and they kept me grounded during some of the hardest Kept playing, the friends I was making through the game were becoming Inside was the best read he has ever and will ever make on me. Playing the worst character in the game because I was also secretly a girl To take the actual risk of actually saying it. Looking for some way of indirectly saying something about myself without having Piloting a robot suit shaped like a buff old dude. Eventually, a new versionĬame out and with it came another new character. In this character started to break something in me. The combination of seeing that transition was a reality coupled with my increasing investment Through traveling to play the game, I had made some of my first trans friendsĪs well. Even as a I was winning things, I felt increasingly inadequate. Elphelt is an ultra-feminine character and playing herĭeeply upset that same bit of me that was happy to play a character likeīridget. The first time I got paid for placing at a tournament Version, so I picked Elphelt instead and had real success for the first time since The moment I saw the trailer for Guilty Gear Xrd, I resolved to be the best I could possibly be at this game. Started playing fighting games competitively to give myself something to do. After college, I struggled on the collapsed job market and had Around the time I started school though, a new guilty gear game Even though I now had the means, the gravity of self-loathing Later reject me and now struggling with the idea of using my newfound autonomy Many years and I’m in grad school, finally away from the family that would I feel so deeply in love withĮverything about the game and played against the computer long after my friends However, in Bridget I saw of different way ofĭoing gender without shame or loathing. The machismo was thick in the air and my self-loathing When I talk to my old classmates we all agree that we went Had been horribly bullied by my public-school classmates so this Me out of public school and sent me into an all boys catholic high school. Around the time I found the series, my parents had taken Goes off an adventure to prove to the world that he can still be a valid man. Despite this, he always refers to himself with he/him pronouns and He was raised as a girl because having twin boys in his village I first found out about this series over a decade ago through a meme on 4chan about the character Bridget. Without this series though, I don’t think I’d ever be the woman Heavy metal bands, a soundtrack curdled with chunky guitar riffs and a story whereĭavid Bowie marries Freddie Mercury’s monster girl daughter. It’s full of unique characters with moves named after
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